Straight up Burglarized!

I guess living in 90211 instead of 90210 will do it to ya... but BEVERLY HILLS IS GHETTO Y'ALL. don't let the allure fool you..

Did they take anything important, you ask?

YES:

My false sense of security because I live in the city of Beverly Hills with silver fire hydrants!!

dreaming of my return to a gated community!

Pug PuP Promises!

We were laying in bed... 6 o'clock, that bewitching hour when you wanna sleep, eat, relax, cocktail, etc.... and all the sudden there was a 15 week old pug puppy in bed with us.. I could just die.

Dreaming of when Alex and I get our own lil guy!! warms my heart just the thought! 

MOMENT OF CLARITY!

Was just trying to explain something to my friend on gchat.. at work.. yes, and.. I had a mere moment of sheer genius (if you will).

QUOTE OF THE YEAR BY: ME!

"JUST BECAUSE IT FITS INTO THE PUZZLE, DOESN'T MEAN THEIR AREN'T BIG PIECES OF THE PUZZLE STILL MISSING"

well that was a self serving little moment.

DREAM ON.

BUYERS REMORSE

I always have the opposite definition of BUYERS REMORSE.. most people buy and wish they hadn't.... I am normally ALWAYS thrilled with my purchases, and only have remorse when I pass a gem up..

WELL, WELL.. the calypso line for Target came out three weeks ago, and normally I go within the first few days of release, well I waited a week and the poufs I wanted were sold out. Well.. knowing Target as I do, I figured they were going to appear at some Target somewhere.. or online. NOPE.. NEITHER HAS BEEN TRUE.. I AM SERIOUSLY SWEATING THIS ONE...

I made such a rookie mistake here..

DREAMING OF THEM BECOMING AVAILABLE AGAIN.. IT HAPPENS

this is one depressing link..."OUT OF STOCK".

IN STOCK, IN STOCK,..

DREAMING.

Disecting

disclaimer: this post is all over the place

I NEVER was the kid who got excited to disect ANYTHING in science class. In fact in middle school I asked my mom to sign me out of disecting a cat in science class. I had heard that some of them even end up being pregnant and I could not even stomach the mere thought of it.
Well that was a random tangent,.. I had thrown out the title "disecting" only to explain why I hadn't blogged in a week.. and it was because I was disecting thoughts.. meanwhile I decided to tell you about dead animals. oy.
Some of the things I was disecting...

1) ALEX GRADUATED FROM LAW SCHOOL!!!! I know we all seem to know a lot of people who accomplish this. But, for some reason it felt special to me. It wasn't something "everyone does". That is how I have always felt about graduations... and people going wild for them.. IT WAS EXPECTED PEOPLE..
Like yes I had a High School grad party.. any excuse for a celebration.. BUT- duh, who doesn't? Same for college.. like yes it is great to be done and to feel you accomplished something, and heck those might just have been the best years of my life (HA! no but, really) but everyone does it, it is a social norm and expected of us..

BUT LAW SCHOOL!!!!!! felt different, felt prouder,...

2) The next thing to disect: my return to facebook and immediate deletion of what was almost a year without it. I found myself on my iPad on facebook the other night.. and I had told myself NO, NO, NO.. never go on outside of work. I was so dissapointed in myself I almost deactivated again. AND why did I upload all my pictures from my phone to it? I know I wanted to delete them from the phone.. but.. did they have to go to facebook instead of just a lost file on the computer? CURRENTLY DISECTING THIS THOUGHT.. now erasing the albums would be quite melo-dramatic.. but it sort of bugs me to have them up.. HAHAHAHA... oh the trials and tribulations, so many white girl problems to keep me up at night.

3) THIS BLOG. To turn it around and pour effort in... and make it something, or leave it a crazy mix of my thoughts and pictures. Keep it totally organic for my own simple veiwing pleasures and leave it a place to just post random stuff. OR...
try to make it streamlined, create a focus, clean it up, link to things, really make it a "BLOG".
Do I continue to judge those who create facades of their life and in return garner viewership and prestige.. simply by posting a good outfit, a spotting of a good outfit, and the wonderful activities in which we all engage... I COULD DO THAT, RIGHT?
but that is not me.. me is a mess. me is a bunch of random honesnt sloppy thoughts thrown all over this place, throwing up a picture here and there, an experience, an angry rant.. who cares if anyone reads it, this won't be my career path anyways, HOW MANY BLOGGERS ACTUALLY MAKE IT? but I could make it if I wanted to? that is the internal struggle.. to try to make this puppy an actual "GO" or laugh it off and continue my natural organic thoughts of "EW, that is not who I am". 

here is some background: for some odd reason I got roped into blogs last week. Endless hours spent perousing on blogs. Design blogs, lifestyle blogs, fashion blogs.. you name it, I was probably on it. Some of them blew my mind, do these 20 somethings really have this kind of dough to afford the houses they were showing and to have three children in beautiful clothing, and to take vacations to St. Barths? Here I thought I was priviledged. Then the devils advocate came out. PUMP THE BREAKS... what if I posted all the lovely, incredible, wonderful activities I partake in? What if everytime I went to one of those activities I put effort into my every move and outfit? What if I drove around LA taking pictures in great outfits and great scenary at great meals with great people!? AND ONLY POSTED THOSE EXPERIENCES...
HERE IS MY ANSWER TO THOSE WHAT IF'S...
then I would judge myself the way I judged the other "perfect" blogs...
THAT IS NOT REAL, IT CAN NOT FEEL GOOD, IT IS A FACADE.. give me something truthful, a feeling, a thought, a moment, a breakdown, the good- the bad- and- the ugly.. right?

I wanna relate to you, I wanna laugh with you, I wanna feel for you, I wanna envy you one day and pitty you the next.... that is what I want when I go to a blog...

But, that's what makes the world tick.. to each their own, and this is my own.. and though I may never be making the big bucks of this little guy- why should I want to?

now the new dream is.. the thought of a plus size blog? I go back and forth... hmmmm...... DISECTING!

Friday choices

Bringing cupcakes to the office... bad move Sabrina

there is one missing...

whoops.

owning it! jealous? dream on.. it's mine!

props to Hansen's

DREAMS

The title of this blog is dreams after all. How I came to that name is a split second of thoughtlessness. You know when you are just writing and things just happen, and if you are me.. YOU JUST GO WITH IT? I don't really think twice, and that my friends- IS A DOUBLE EDGED SWORD.

Sometimes it is great to just GO FOR IT, GO WITH IT, AND DO IT. Other times, it is like.. why didn't I take a step back and think that one through? OH WELL, we are -who we are, embrace it!

So anyways.. I cannot stop HAVING BAD DREAMS. go away. How come when I am awake and cognitively there I come up with all these happy, amazing, worldly "dreams"... but in my actual REM cycle, asleep in my amazing bed that is filled with duvets, down pillows, shams and soft blankets, I HAVE HORRIBLE NIGHTMARES? HELP SOMEONE..

PLEASE!! WHO KNEW I WOULD WANT 'DREAMS' to go away sometimes..

Is there a such thing as a dream doctaaaa? I know, there are alternative methods to trying to "control your dreams"... and I might just have to dive into those any day now.. because I cannot keep watching 'sex and the city' 'the nanny' and 'chelsea lately' at 4am anymore.. although, those are all some of my favs!


DREAM ON.

SPEC-ulating

So, it is official. I am old. My eyes are shot. I can tell the time has come at the ripe old age of 25 that I get my first pair of glasses.. non-sunglasses that is. NOW, I have ALWAYS had a sickening sunglasses fetish, will that translate into reading glasses? UGH... I feel like it is such a hard thing to chose a pair..

HELP? do I go funky? classic and timeless? expression of personality? 9-1-1

UGH. I don't die over any of them. Is it too much to ask to turn sunglasses into prescription glasses? 

dreaming of the perfect pair.. till then I would rather squint! 

Live blogging

from the Apple store in Century City. I think I am going to have to do lots of research on apple's quarterly and yearly reports. They sure do a business. Better be a serious genius at this "bar" because I am one pissy pants Sabrina right now. My iPad wont charge and that causes me great distress when I am not able to play 'words with friends'. To think, I was going to ditch my blackberry for an iPhone all in the name of vanity.. LESSON LEARNED. Kate Spade sure does make cute cases though....

at least I have a cute case for the iPad that doesn't work. Bad enough I got it a month before the new one came out.. 

oh technology. 

please call my name already... 

bitterbetty. 

Happy Cinco De Mayo. 

Dreaming of chips and gauc and big ol Margi.