Seasons Changing

"Seasons change, so do cities. People come into your life and people go,.." my favorite episode of Sex and The City. 


So... deep thoughts. 


The air is brisk, and although everyone is gushing that fall is here, and even I have that "back to school" feeling in  my bones, I know it will be scorching hot again in a couple weeks- always happens. 


        ANYWAYS,        CHANGE. 


People do grow up, and people do change. I know that I fundamentally have. truly, madly deeply. 


In the last two years I can document in my mind 3 traumatic social experiences, that utterly rocked my world, my soul, and my character. I think people normally have these experiences in college maybe. TOOK ME AWHILE.. I also think all of my "dramatics" in HS or College never really altered my being. Sad, but true. Patterns always repeated. Until I decide to change them. I really have weirdly become independent and spiritually minded. You put something into the universe and it normally materializes. AGREED?  


well, anyways, where in the world am I going with this? 
-I guess that all the sudden, fall is here, and I feel like I woke up and realized, where am I? (maybe it is because my husband fell asleep at 6:30pm tonight- LITERALLY. I mean, I always was an 80 year old at heart.. but now I am physically living the 80 year old life too? OY). 


It almost saddens me though. I have become so much harder, colder, less sensitive. Real life happens, and not every little detail matters anymore. Things that I used to truly feel as tragic or hurtful, roll of my shoulder.. is this what growing up is like, or is this a result of my person life experiences, maybe that is one in the same.  I sort of wish I could get the over-confident, stupidly comfortable, loud mouthed, never think twice before acting Sabrina back. Where did this calm, peaceful, antisocial, stable, non-dramatic, uninvolved person come from? It isn't new I have created and settled into this. Maybe I am so happy and simplistically minded in my marriage? The good thing is, I think you always have to check in and evaluate where you are, who you are, and what you want.. that is the only way to keep yourself and your relationships in check. The bad news is,... is the new me, the right me? 


Earlier today, I found myself talking to a friend, one who I consider one of my closest, and I brought something up that had sort of royally stung a couple weeks/months back. Now, I am not talking a comment at a lunch table, or not being invited on a Friday night- I am talking... like- you aren't in my wedding party,  or you aren't invited to our reunion girls weekend, or my boyfriend really doesn't like you and we can't see each other anymore... those kind of magnitude of things... and I found myself not saying what I wanted/needed or found important.. I just truly felt- WHO THE HECK CARES? just LET. IT. GO. 


HOW COME?




How did I come from polar opposite ends of the spectrum? from originally being the passionate never let it slide type, to the who cares- always let it go, life goes on girl? 
Do I now have to spend the next two years learning how to meet in the middle.. or do I just embrace the stages that I am in and go with it? THAT'S IT.. WHERE IS THE SELF HELP SECTION OF THE BOOK STORE? bah ha. 


Another friend told me yesterday (gchat at work is very effective) that she loves reading blogs because it feels like a diary.. well this is one hell of a diary entry, so MERRY CHRISTMAS... YOU HAVE THE KEY TO MINE PEOPLE! 




Hello fall... bring on the change of the season! Dreaming of the holiday season.. I love it all, it is weird how much I like Thanksgiving-Christmas.. but at the same time have such love for fourth of july and summer.. 


goal: to read more, my best friends boyfriend got her a nook (Barnes and Noble's version of the kindle) and she reads nonstop.. and if I am going to be such a hermit, then I may as well broaden my horizons on paper and read, read, read! Just because I am reading the 'Carrie Diaries' right now, doesn't mean I am not a genius. back off. 

Fashion Night Out

FNO TONIGHT!

You know I love that Ferris Wheel on Rodeo with food trucks, fashion shows, and stores open late night. This night was essentially created from my dreams. I wish I could have been in NY... Missoni for Target pre-sale... ugh, but I will take what I got and run with it... Will update y'all on the escapades.


for now:

Getting ready for a Noreen Fraser Foundation board meeting tomorrow, at the Peninsula Hotel, Beverly Hills which I adore.
Ever been to high tea at the Peninsula? DO IT.



Dreaming.

DREAMS

Magic Peanut Butter Cookies

I have been baking these NON-STOP. (I wish I would stop). Literally, those easiest best thing ever. Thank You, Paula Deen. click and get the RECIPE.

Literally, 1 egg, some peanut butter, dash of vanilla and some splenda or brown sugar and you are good to go!!!!

Sun is shining!

Coming out of mourning.. Alex's dear grandpa passed away a couple weeks ago, at too young of an age, 75 in June. But.. as they told us on the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills last night, "Life does go on"... and
the sun is shining, this too shall pass.. and I am back into the swing of things!!!



Busy day..



Feeling inspired. Will blog lots!!!!!


DREAMING...

RECAP

A lot of excitement at work which always feels good, and fulfilling.. especially in the name of raising $$$ for cancer.

A lot of growing in life as well.

Saw my favorite intuitive/pyschic if you will.. that is always fun and enlightening.

and a boat ride..

Yamashiro Market, Thursday Nights.

Such a cool find Downtown, Perch

Excursion to the OC Fair

a celebrity (not allowed to promote who yet) played/filmed 'Price is Right' for NFF

saw Adele at the Palladium.. I have no words for how amazing she was/is. 

 

off to lunch, to have my 3rd BeachBod salad of my work week.. with friends, naturally. PHEW

Lots of lessons and trials and tribulations of the week as well, but my ultimate advice- 

Keep dreaming, stay positive, clear your life of negatives.. you know what/who they are... simple as that. Easier said then done? I don't think so. Just do it. Get a grip, and try your best to cleanse.. not the Pressed Juicery type of cleanse.. but mentally. 

Spending the weekend in SD, thrilled... we will go to the SD Zoo, i love those dang animals.. see old college friends, eat great food.. so fun to take easy weekends. 

L'CHAIM. 

dreaming.

right on the BULLSEYE

Ok, TARGET.

I must have everything MISSONI, for Target.


I can barely breath. My excitement is beyond. I already have anxiety that I could miss getting my hands on some of the best pieces. You have no idea. I hate this feeling, some Targets will put it out a day early, it will sell out online because they want to just restock and get rid of it in stores too fast. I am almost so anxious that for one second I contemplated not even posting a blog about it, BECAUSE WHAT IF PROMOTING IT HELPS IT SELL OUT FASTER? (good thing I have no readers and this is just a cathartic fun process for me, PHEW).

IT IS SO GOOD, BEYOND. AMAZING. yes. 

DREAMING.

"Tomorrow it starts, Monday"

You know the drill... "OH, tomorrow is Monday I will eat healthy starting then". Feels like I say that three weeks out of the month, whoops.

Well, I can never promise to you that it will stick, but the outlook is always pretty good on Tuesday mornings.


Last night I went wild with the healthy cooking and prep for the week. I want to share. First of all the new joke in our household (Alex and I's) is that we are getting "heart-healthy". My father may not be scared by his little episode but my poor husband sure is. Put him into a fury of "gotta get healthy" mindset.


SO.. I made some fun things!

Started at the grocery store... 

Then decided to attempt homemade salad dressing the results were AMAZING. I put half an avocado, 2 tablespoons of non-fat sour cream, organic parsley, cilantro, balsamic vinegar, olive oil, salt and pepper.. and BOOM! 

 The next thing I do often, because I am married to a freak who hates when I am lazy with chicken (AKA- I cannot marinade the chicken in the same casserole that I cook it in, or put it back without washing it... ya, ya I get it.. most people are that way) SO, to save myself an extra dish I prep it in the container I buy it in, then place it in a plastic baggy to marinate.
4 breast cut in half to last throughout the week, with fresh garlic, lemon, parsley, and rosemary. EASY, fresh, and yummy.

 Now: the interesting thing- KALE CHIPS. 3 different friends had recommended trying this, so I finally did. Rip up some fresh Kale, throw it on a cookie sheet with some olive oil, salt and pepper and bake! They were soooo good fresh, they have gotten a little soggy sitting desk-side this AM, but still good.

 AND: Pressed Juicery. I am trying to learn how to make my own juices but they just never seem to come out right, or edible for that matter.
PS- the PRESSED man yesterday made me feel so much better when he told me they aren't necessarily intended to be a meal. PHEWY.

DREAMING that this time the health kick sticks a little. HERE'S HOPING...